Control Freak

Quiet time this week has been pulled from Sarah Young's, Jesus Calling. Today's devotion, September 17, is all about planning and the need to control. (Sarah references 1 Peter 5:6-7; Proverbs 16:9 and Psalm 37:5)I am a huge sufferer of this illness. I flip through my journal to document my freakish need to plan and [...]


I walk alone. With only my sadness; my grief; the dark.Doing it my way.As I run ahead, I turn back to see You in the distance. Waiting.Patient.Indulgent.Eternal.You watch as I stretch the distance.You wait as I dare to do more.You mourn as I turn back less.The inevitable.I stumble. I dive headlong.Thinking it will be good.Convinced [...]


There was a time when I would run from conviction. Run and ignore.Over the last few years, however, I have learned to embrace conviction. In fact, I find that conviction equals freedom: I no longer need to do it myself. He sees, He is there to help me.Yesterday, during Worship, was just such a conviction.It wasn't [...]