I was beginning to panic! My blog count read 100 and I’m not ready. So I went back thru and deleted the drafts that I never posted and found that I no longer wanted to post. Whew. I can
procrastinate rest easy for a bit longer!
Where to begin…
Has everyone figured out yet that yes, God had it correct when He placed you in this time and this place? I had the house to myself for a couple of hours last night (which The Man says happens often and I say happens never) and I found myself wandering from room to room, sitting at the computer, picking up a magazine (I’m letting all of mine expire) and tossing it back down again. I realized that I am always so busy all of the time that I hadn’t had a good “crash” for awhile. Usually what happens is that I go and go and go and stress and stress and stress and then I need to take a 24 hour Crash. Where I just can’t go anymore and I have to sleep. And the rest of the world has to continue on without me.
When I suffered from depression back in “the day”, the crash would come often, sometimes weekly, and last longer than 24 hours. ‘Course I didn’t know it was depression back then. I just thought I was useless, lazy, and a whole host of other death-and-self-destruction thoughts and words. Now I recognize the crash as a wake-up call that I need to take better care of myself, physically, emotionally and especially spiritually.
But last night, I realized (was reminded, is more accurate) that THIS is my life. This crazy, on-the-run, often exhausting race is really MY time and MY place. And He has put me here for a reason. A purpose.
I wouldn’t have fit in anywhere else. And He knows it. He brought The Man and I together (and back together after we had separated) for His Plan. He blessed us with the honor of raising The Darlings for His Glory and Purpose.
It’s huge, when I stop to think of it.
The women I have met on this Internet journey have been may-jah (using my Victoria “Posh” Beckam accent) to my life growth and journey. I read about so many of you doing it right. I didn’t say perfectly (thankfully! What pressure that would be on the rest of us!). But doing it right. Doing it the way you want to. Doing it the way He has led you to do it. And I’m inspired to do it better. My way, based on His word and will and plan. I’m ready to start being proactive and not reactive. To living more simply, without so much stuff, and with a better Focus on who and what is most important.
I need to get moving…my quiet time, bible study and journaling are calling me this morning.