I have been trying to figure out my writing voice or niche for awhile now. I like writing voice better and I think you will figure out why as you read on. Writing has been a struggle since I realized I was supposed to write. I’ve always written for me. Whether journaling or, as a child and teen, short stories. The last few years I’ve spent a lot of time writing about figuring out how to be a writer. What to write about. What my voice is. Who my people are. It dawned on me, one sleepless night in Roanoke while my mom was in hospital that I just need to be me sitting across the table from you talking. That’s my voice. You are my people. You’ve told me over and over what you want to hear. So, while I may write now and then that writing is a struggle or ask you what you want me to write about, it’s time to stop procrastinating and just write. Along with procrastinating comes fear. Maybe fear is the reason for procrastination? Probably. I do need to take a minute and tell you that the writing community I belong to, Hope Writers, has helped me see that I need to push past the fear and distraction and procrastination and just write. Hope Writers isn’t open for enrollment right now, but they do have resources available that I can get to you if you are interested in beginning or continuing your writing journey, to include publication. Drop me an email if you want me to send you some information.
This morning I’m sitting on The Porch getting ready to flip through my current journal. I don’t often go back and read what I’ve written in my journal, unless it was a serious ah-ha moment and I marked the page with a corner fold or sticky note. Today I’m looking for some patterns in my thoughts. Negative patterns. I know that the Enneagram is a popular thing right now. On the Enneagram, I’m a One. I know that the Enneagram is a real thing and that I am a One because I fit the One description perfectly. OCD, perfectionism, negative self-talk, seeing something wrong and wanting it fixed immediately, taking everything to heart and carrying it with me for eternity, easily frustrated when things aren’t going what I perceive to be the right way. All of it is me. If you haven’t heard much about the Enneagram or would like to learn about it and what your number(s) might be, The Road Back to You by Suzanne Stabile is a great place to begin.