Nine Months…nope…nothing to do with babies.

Nine months (almost). That’s how long it has been since I’ve blogged.

A lot has happened in those months.

We lost our beloved Andy. Twenty-two years old. My baby sister’s oldest and only boy. He was the first grandchild. My Andy B’s. God…I miss him so much. But then, You know that, God, since I cry out to You every day. The trickle down from Andy’s death…well, more on all of that over the next few months.

 Andy and his momma

My mom was diagnosed with lung cancer. Ironic that the October before, she gave up smoking for good. Thankfully, it was caught fairly early…but not as early as they had initially led us to believe. Concurrent chemo/radiation ensued following surgery and now she is doing so well. She has peach fuzz growing on top of her bald head and a spring back in her step, finally. The cancer didn’t bring her down…but losing her oldest grandson sure did and continues to.


My mother-in-love’s cancer returned…if it was ever really gone. And she was with Jesus (in the biggest mansion He could provide, we are positive!) in a matter of months. Hard, man. Hard.


But God keeps reminding me that He sent Jesus among us so that we could live abundantly (John 10:10). defines abundantly as: present in great quantity; more than adequate; over sufficient; well supplied; richly supplied.

The Greek Transliteration of abundantly is incredible…

 περισσός perissos {per-is-sos'}

from G4012 (in the sense of beyond); TDNT - 6:61,828; adj

—Greek Word Study (Transliteration-Pronunciation Etymology & Grammar)

 1) exceeding some number or measure or rank or need
1a) over and above, more than is necessary, superadded
1a1) exceeding abundantly, supremely
1a2) something further, more, much more than all, more plainly
1b) superior, extraordinary, surpassing, uncommon
1b1) pre-eminence, superiority, advantage, more eminent,
more remarkable, more excellent

—Thayer’s (New Testament Greek-English Lexicon)

From G4012 (in the sense of beyond); superabundant (in quantity) or superior (in quality); by implication excessive; adverb (with G1537) violently; neuter (as noun) preeminence:—exceeding abundantly above, more abundantly, advantage, exceedingly, very highly, beyond measure, more, superfluous, vehement [-ly].

—Strong’s (Greek Dictionary of the New Testament)

 AV - more 2, beyond measure 1, vehemently + G1537 1, more abundantly 1,
advantage 1, superfluous 1, very highly + G5228 + G1537 1,
exceeding abundantly above + G5228 + G1537 1,
exceeding + G5228 + G1537 1; 10

Abundantly, I have not been living. And while I’ve tried to get back on track before…November 1 is looking like the day to start making disciplined, progressive, baby steps of faith, back to the living.

More tomorrow…

7 thoughts on “Nine Months…nope…nothing to do with babies.

  1. Let's do it, Sooz!! I've allowed myself to be weighed down by the mundane, the discouraging, the frustrating – it's time to live with intention! To live with purpose! To love with joy!

  2. Grief is tough. Grief compounded is horrendous. You've been hit from all sides this year, I'm so glad to hear the fog is fading and the sun is rising in your life again. I love you girl, in the fog, and in the sun! Praying for you. <3

  3. Yes, Jeni! Let's do this thing! I feel like I skated thru Shawn & Sarah's childhoods…it is stinkin' HARD being the mommy of younger ones…you are definitely in the trenches! And with Brett…I really tried to suck the life out of every second. Lately, however…well, you know…

    Also…beginning in January, I would like to do a book study. Interested in participating? I'm going to put something out on The Twitter. I'm open to suggestions.

  4. What a tough, tough year for you. Sounds like you are reaching for that hand that is wanting to pull you back up. Grab it! Praying for the abundance 🙂

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