Do ya know what I love about Jesus? His mercies are new every morning. I can have the worst day. I can toss and turn all night, worrying, fretting, praying…and the next morning…is a new beginning.
Like this morning. I actually had a great day yesterday, but last night…last night I doubt I slept more than two hours. My Man said I tossed and turned and whimpered and “made funny little noises” all night. I believe him. The fact that I am typing this at 8:07 am while my daughter is in Maryland, 50 miles away, warming up on the volleyball court tells you I am out of sorts this morning.
I got up with them, but I just couldn’t face an entire day in a high school gym having to make small (or big) talk with the other parents. Yes, Russell would be there too, but ya gotta be social at these things. Especially with all the goings on with the varsity coach and five varsity players (and their parents…that’s the kicker right there) at the tournament. They will all want to talk about it and frankly, I just don’t want to today.
And this, I know, is selfish. Because I know that truly, when push comes to shove, Russell and I know for a fact that everything that happens is God’s plan, not ours. The other parents of the varsity girls…not so much. I know we are to be the light. I know we are to walk our witness and tell them that we know Who is in control and our kid, no matter what, will be okay because she knows Him and loves Him.
So here’s the deal with the new every morning. I tossed and turned all night last night because I was stressing and fretting about all of the things I just told you I was totally unconcerned with! I couldn’t get it out of my head…the worry and concern I have for our daughter. I KNOW, KNOW, KNOW she will be fine. It’s just getting through to the fine part…you know…the unknown-I-don’t-have-control-part…that is difficult for me. And now that the decision has been made that our oldest will go to Longwood and not CNU, I have THAT to worry about! Longwood is much more liberal than CNU. He will be exposed to the liberal agenda no matter where he goes and I know that he has a solid base and foundation in Christ. I know it, I really do. But I can’t help but worry.
Which all reminds me that if I worry and fret like this because of my love for my children…what does my Father in heaven go through every single day? I love my children…He created my children (and me).
Thankfully, I came to Him full on this morning and poured it all out to Him again and I feel renewed, refreshed. Redeemed.
Oh, how I love Him~