Today is really the first day of the New Year for me…

For some reason, January 1 just didn’t do it for me.

Shawn went back to Longwood yesterday. That makes the New Year seem more…here. We are back to a more normal state.

Typing “more normal state” and then reading it back made me laugh out loud.

I’m not really sure what “normal” is anymore. I’m not really sure I believe “normal” exists anymore.

I have realized as I’m getting older that I am resistant to change.

I resisted the new normal of Shawn being away at college. Now I’m resisting his returns for extended periods of time. It just throws me off, as much as I adore that kid.

I am completely resisting the new normal of life with a rebellious, angry, self-centered 18 year old daughter. After the exchange of a few words last night before she went out, I awoke to see she never came home last night. This is the new normal. And I hate it.

I can honestly say I’m resisting the new normal of turning 49 at the end of this month and the 49 year old body that has tagged along with that new normal. That is one change I am trying to change, lol.

So, as I begin this “first day of the New Year,” I have discovered that normal is all about continuous change. Even the normalness of my morning quiet time is ever changing. God’s Word is alive. Every time I read a familiar verse, He says something different to me.

That is a change I want to embrace.

7 thoughts on “Today is really the first day of the New Year for me…

  1. I love you. I love your blog. And, I always love what you have to say.

    You are a gem to those of us that “know” you!

    big hugs from me!

  2. LOVE your new look – so very pretty! I may just have to abandon doing my own and let M do one for me too! LOVE it!

    I know the new normal is not easy, but you are a constant witness through it all and THAT is beautiful!

  3. Here's what I know…our God NEVER changes. Hallelujah! It's the one thing in life that is steadfast–I love that I can count on Him!

    I love you friend–you're inspiring me to dust off the pages of my old blog! 😉

    I'm steadfast too…always here for you through the changes.

  4. I have a husband and a son who innately hate change. My girl and I rather enjoy it. Makes for an interesting household.

    When my husband had cancer 7 yrs. ago (had to think about that one and just did a little happy dance and clapped my hands), we began to learn that life changes so very quickly. There really is no such thing as normal for us. God does not allow us to sit still and get comfortable. Today, we laugh when we hear that word – normal. 🙂

    Also, thank you to all the compliments on the blog design. Susan was a joy to work with on it. VERY easy to please, and easy to read as far as a style that would fit her.

  5. After “yapping w/ ya” on Twitter this morning just had to stop by and say Hi. 🙂 Yes there is a new normal, the teen years are tough ones, as I am just starting to find out.

    This getting older stuff is tough at times! But remember you don't walk this road alone, there are many of us in it with you. 🙂
    Hope you are having a good day!
    Sandy @ Jesus and Dark Chocolate

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