This was a direct quote from God.
Okay, not directly, but pretty much. Sort of.
This and, “Susan, do you trust me?”
Oh, and, “Susan, do you believe me?”
When God says things like this to you…hang on.
Here’s the thing about staying in the Word every day…it enables one to better recognize God’s voice.
DISCLAIMER: I am NOT audibly hearing the voice of God. I am not proclaiming to be a prophet. Just wanted to make that clear.
But I do feel Him speaking to me. I know you know what I mean.
I am convinced that this recent time of rest and refueling was all in preparation for a bit of a roller coast ride. I could possibly list all of the things hitting us one by one right now…unexpected whopper expenses, stolen cell phones out of locked lockers, having to pay the IRS a ginormous junk of change for the first time EVER, and I could go on. But I won’t. I’m not whining about all of this at all.
Truly, I’m not.
Because I was prepared (see above warning from Above). Unfortunately, The Man…not so much. As I calmly reminded him after the vacuum cleaner blew up this morning…yes…BLEW UP…
it is A Test.
One part of this test is that I need to be better communicating with my spouse. I saw this coming. I failed to mention it. He has really been stressing about it. I should have warned him.
I know that everything is going to be okay. Everything is going to be fine. I know this because it has always been true in the past.
I know this because for the last two weeks, every bible study passage, every devotion, every Word in the bible I have read has led me to the following equation:
Susan=self-centeredness=disobedience=lack of faith=choosing to believe=obeying out of reverence=faith=blessing
He DOES prepare us for a time of roller coaster rides. But we have to be open. Seeking. Listening.
I knew it was all coming and that it was all going to be okay when I found myself, after saying for 5 years now that on our 25th wedding anniversary (which is September 10, 2008) I wanted us to have a big celebration, just the two of us…heading off to exotic locations….yadda yadda…and now saying yesterday that we can’t possibly go anywhere for our 25th anniversary! Shawn will be in college (cha-ching), Sarah will be playing her last year of volleyball and I want to see every game, Brett will be in 7th grade, playing football and I want to see every game, well…going away for our anniversary just wasn’t so important anymore. The important things were what I just listed. The things that bring me true joy. Spending time with My Man…yes…and being with these amazing children that God has seen to bless us with.
And as I was saying this to bff Lori, my beloved was transferring all of the money out of our 25th anniversary vacation fund into our checking account to cover all of the roller coaster expenses that seemed to hit us out of nowhere. When I found this out (this morning over a cup of Cafe Verona) I felt such peace and gratitude that we HAD that money socked away for such a time as this.
Yes, it’s bumpy right now and we may be eating a lot of pb&j sandwiches, but we’re going to be fine.
Because I believe.