I started this on Random Wednesday, aka Wicked Wednesday.
I have been so torn lately.
Why am I writing this blog? For myself?
many five readers?
Why do I read other blogs? Do I want to be entertained? I mean I live with Sue’s Zoo: The Man; two teenagers; one tween; five psychotic fish that follow us around the room from within their tank; one ancient, completely blind and deaf dog who eats her own (and the other dog’s) poop; a ginormous German shepherd/lapdog; and a 7 pound cat who really runs the show.
How much more entertainment can I take?
Do I desire connections? Am I just down-right nosey?
I haven’t figured it all out yet, but I do know that in participating in the blogging world…writing…reading…connecting…I have discovered just how painful life truly can be. The problems and trials that I have, while significant to me, are walks-in-the-park compared to the nightmares, tragedies, and horrors I have come across on other blogs.
So I have to wonder. Why DO I blog? Is it a God thing? Is He leading me to certain people and their blogs?
I think He is.
He and I ‘discussed’ it this morning.
Because I’ve really been struggling with the burdens of those I have come to know in Blogville.
As in thinking it is time to hang up my computer and quit the blogging world.
But he led me down a path this morning that really spoke to me on this subject. Yes, life can be so very horrible at times, but I am to continue to be joyful. I am to continue to be thankful for each and every daggone blessing He has seen fit to give me. And they are plentiful. I know, because I’ve been making myself name ten every morning, just to keep my
Then there is His Living Word.
Nehemiah 8:10: Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength
Esther 9:22: when their sorrow was turned into joy and their mourning into a day of celebration
Job 6:10: Then I would still have this consolation— my joy in unrelenting pain
Psalm 30:11: You turned my wailing into dancing; you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy
Psalm 126:5-6: Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy. He who goes out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with him
And tons more.
I couldn’t find any scripture that told me to not grieve; not feel sad; not weep with my sisters in Christ. To the contrary. But I can not let it impact me to the point where I can no longer function in the ways He has called me to. I must remember the Joy that is Jesus Christ. Always. Forever. Never changing…
no, not ever
So now my choice is this: Do I, having heard from Him, now disobey Him by turning away from what He has called me to do? Or do I stay on this path, determined to find the Joy in the sorrow?
That Girl would have walked away.
This Girl has to choose to stay.
Hard as it may be sometimes.
Praying that He will remind me of the Joy that is mine in Him.
And having to accept that sometimes, life just sucks.