Is it just me or is Christmas coming faster every year? My dad warned me this would happen. Not specifically Christmas coming quickly, but the year(s) moving more quickly as I age. Is aging and time like a snowball? Gathering speed as it moves closer to the bottom of the end? That’s my deep thought for the day. Probably the only one. You’re welcome.
Anyone else absolutely freaked out that we are only 27 days until the New Year? I mean I’ve held it together pretty well until this morning. My brain can not slow down, turn off, or focus, on any one thing or even all the things it should be focused on. Instead, I am wandering down memory lane, revisiting past events that have no business sticking their nose into my present and future, abandoned plans, broken relationships that aren’t supposed to be healed, habits and behaviors that are just not healthy, and the weight of things done that can not be undone…I’m cutting it all loose today. As in, I’m making the choice. Do I continue being distracted by all the shiny and/or tarnished things that pop up? Or do I make the conscious decision to let the past be the past and today is a new day, a new beginning?
Yeah, it’s easy to say that and another to actually make it so, but I have to begin somewhere. More importantly, I must change my own negative thought processes to positive ones. In everything. I’ve already begun that with focusing on food…is it medicine and fuel? It needs to be right now. And moving more? I am, but I need an actual plan and tracking system. Decluttering and cleaning out our home? It’s happening, usually with me kicking and screaming. So I’ve been taking pictures of things and books and tucking them away as reminders. Reminders for what, I’m not sure, but it’s making the process easier and I’m letting things go. Literally.
This morning as I was writing out a lot of these thoughts in the journal, I realized that just putting pen(cil) to paper and letting it all out of my stopped up brain really had a calming and I can do this effect. I’m seeing and thinking more clearly. Able to prioritize and, I’m positive, focus on what I need to be doing. Yeah, it’s a lot. But it all doesn’t have to be done today. Or even in the next 27 days. Because nothing says new beginnings like January 1. Christmas is coming and I really need to get my brain and heart back on track with what it really means. For this gift girl, that means all the presents. And Jesus. Definitely Jesus. Y’all know I’m joking…it’s Jesus first. Then all the presents.
How is everyone else coping with this time of year? Anyone just sitting back, wishing for snow and letting the rest of it not bother you? If so, share your secrets on how you do that!
See you soon.